Sore throat.. Singing???

Man... havin a sore throat is the worst thing that could have happened to u, esp if u r required to be singing.. oh ya.. Y'day at the rehearsal was trying my best to sing as well as preserve my voice... hitting the high A, B and C when u r having a sore throat is not easy!!!! And if u continue to strain ur voice, u mit loose it!! that's what i was scared about.. but the other option of not singing was even scarier... like y'day Conductor Lim yau was like in a rage.... Wow!! i was jus praying to God that he would not point or pick on me.. Thank God he did not.. otherwise it wud have be sooo embrassing... like y'day he was moving people around,, changing positions so that the Choir would sound better (like moving the weaker ones to a more comfortable place...) then pointing out to people who were not singing to SING, abrubtly stopping the choir n makin three tenors to sing alone cos he cant get the sound that he wants from them... then telling us that we were not Good enough to be deemed as professionals... Oh mann.. after al that crap, he told us that He Loved each and everyone of us and thats yy he is doin all these.. and even apologised for tiring us sooo much (oh the rehearsal was intense, partly cos the concert is nearing.. 13th nov people!!!) but he said that this particular piece (Brahms' german requiem) is very complicated and demanded that of us.. saying stuffs like 'even if u take out the words, the notes alone is still a master piece'

Oh mann... i should not be absent for rehearsals, i mean i m present every monday (but i jus cant make it on thrusdays.. got class...) jus scared cos he was telling us to be more regular...

Food, Food, CRAVINGS, CRAVINGS...

AAAH... jus cant take it ya... i have been munching out the whole week... even after dinner (or lunch) i jus have this urge to eat something.. n i usuali end up snacking on unhealthy stuffs (chips, cookies, pocky, Pretzels...) AVoNI.. COntrol!!!!

LIke y'day... at DG i was like horrendously craving for a Subway cookie, (n i had dinner already) so all the way thru dg, my mind was like 'cookie, cookie;.. sadly the outlet at Chinatown was closed by the time we finis Dg(10 plus)... so decided to drag everyone to 7eleven... grab a pocky and a famous amos cookie.. bah,, no match for subway!!! nwas.. even the night before was like that... like i reached home from school , then this urge jus captured me, so ended up eating a curry puff!!!

To make matters worst, the pattern is following even today!!! jus had a cream cracker n now eating 'Rold Gold America's NO 1 Pretzels" lol... nwas.. m not gaining any weight so i DON care... but m scared that i'l end up FAT!!! (My worst nightmare!!!) oh!! finally satisfied my craving for a subway cookie today (jus before havin a filling lunch of fish and chips... DUH!!) seems like my heart (or rather my mouth lol) is stronger than my mind...

Oh shut up AVONI!!! stop stop.... i'l go n watch MADE OF HONOR....

Dating.... MARRIAGE???

Well... at small group today... Pastor Dennis continued with the Topic of DATING and there about went to MARRIAGE as well.... pretty interesting... never knew that such a topic would bring so much excitement!!! LOL...
Nwas i jus juxtapose all the things that stood out okie??? cant write in exact sequence ya... lol!!!
Pastor D: "What come to your mind when you think of Dating? please dont think Christian ok?"
Ella: In Nagaland there are less non-Christian so?? i cant think in non-christian way (ding....) .. but dating is like getting to know someone more and just spending time..
Me: Dating is like enjoying the other person and getting to know more about him.
Samuel: dating... i believe shud b male and female... i don like male-male or...
Pastor D: Ya God made Adam and Eve not Adam and STEVE... (everyone burst out laughin)
"its about seeing whether u r compatible" "goin out for movies or dinner"

DATING in Christian sense????
"More boundaries and more cautious" "values system" "Church comes to mind - like cell group" "accountability"

PURPOSE of Dating???
"Eventually lead to marriage" "compatibility" "get to know his/her family"

OK I CANT REM IN PROPER SEQUENCE... HERE.. I L DUMP EVERYTHING!!
One thing that struck me was what Pastor Anita said, "marriage is not about completeness.. it's about two whole individual coming together, and still being whole even after they are together" (it's jus awesome!!!)
"i always pictured marriage as a triangle - God, me and my husband." (cool ryt??) "Marriage??? Finding someone who has the qualities that i don't,, like example, i m bad in finance so someone who can handle money" (Guess who said this??? hahha... we suggested to him to advertize for an accountant.. lol)
"In the world dating is all about getting what you can from the other person... satisfy your needs..." " ya in the world sense, the guy is like can i get sex out of this relationship" "but if you love someone, the expressions of your love should not bring you guilt"
This talk led to TRUE LOVE WAITS.. its like a movement where u abstian from sex before marriage... and safe your VIRGINITY for your husband/wife. cos otherwise the real essence of marriage that God created would be spoilt!!!
Then there was this issue of Flee-ing from Temptation, resolving in your heart, pursing a goal of righteousness, love, peace etc.. and ACCOUNTABILITY!!!
ya accountability like havina senior person be your mentor of your relationship etc... helpin u in the path.. etc.. kinda cool...
Man my small group is like the coolest group in the whole wide world!!!!

JUNO... All i want is you

was reading deniece's blog today.. man.. that song that she posted is awesome.. its the song from JUNO.. ALL i want is you!!!!... oh man....
Decided to watch the movie.. instead of polishing my paper (due tomor) nwas i'l wake up tmr n do...
Nwas the most touching thing about this movie was towards the end.. wer the daddy saya to juno... "find the person who will love you for who you are, just the way you are, all sides of you... " (at least it something like that.. for goodness sake i did not memorize it!!!) COOL man.... got to sleep now... muacks!!!!

consequences... or TREATS!!!

There are times when u do things u shud not do and DON do what u shud do.. like pricking ur unnoticable Zits and turning them into huge bulbs of pimples, or opening ur big mouth only to offend someone wen u don mean it... AND doin things u ought to do and shud do but DONt do.... like cleaning ur room... are always pushed to the rear... (We cleaned our room ttoday and it is super neat,,, hurray!! i can breathe now...) but what you don realise is that doin what u shud b doin only helps u!!!
OK... like for example, doin the right things benefits u not only in that area but in others as well (lets take that as complimentary bebefits.. :-)... for instance, cleaning the room.. makes the room clean, enhances the studying mood, burns calories (hence slimmer) et etc...
well, the analogy m trying to make is that I shud b doing the RIGHT thing and not only go by my feelin... before i do anything Stupid,, i shud take into consideration what the outcome will be... well if it doesn't hurt anyone then well i l go ahead.. but shalyn taught me a lesson the other day.... "it's gud that u live in the moment... but be careful, wen u r dealing with other people's lives.." mmm..... i love me, me, me... and i love my neighbour, neighbour, neighbour....

So Hard!!!

i almost broke out into tears ya... being a classically train painist, its so hard to get the 'swing'... so very!!! I hope i get it.. Like last sunday, Joel was trying to teach (very patiently, i tel ya) but it din get thru my thick skull... nwas half way thru... Uncle Jimmy came in and started laughin at me, telling me that i was doin it wrong... at first i cud take it, i jus smiled and tried my best... but he wunt stop laughing at me!!! Even after Joel explained it to him that i don know the 'duno-wat-some-technique' he wunt stop....

well, at this point my face wen from 'moses bright' to 'pharoah black'.... LOL!!! but i m not goin to GIVE UP!!!!!

mmm.... oh ya... i learnt a new variation of the 4 pattern (drums) its soooo cooool/..... oh mann... finally m able to play drums.. after a long wait!!!! Paul david din have the time to teach, jerry was too LAZY, Chee kin did make an effort but he's busy ya (baby n stuffs)....

Ok.... finally today i got to catch up on my sleep.... since sat until like this morn.. i was totally busy... slept at 3am, woke up at 6am, ten run around the whole day (doin stuffs that i cunt cancel).... but today i made it a point to rest!!! so after i reach home about 11am.. i slept until 3pm... phew!!! a relief....

well, not got to shower n get ready to go to school... oh mann, i haven done my readings... m screwed!!!!

JAZZ!!!

Jazz jazz... this sudden craze and frenzy love for jazz overpowered me... cunt stop listening to 'Jamie cullum' (He's cute... oh!) 'diana krall' 'frank sinatra' (so old ya.. lol) nwas i think it's such a beautiful and refreshing genre of music... I cunt wait to be playing it!!! despite not having a piano at hand, here in singapore, i sort of like try to imagine.. i hope imagining helps! lol! people don't laugh t meh ok? when u hear me talk about it.. like face to face.. then u will understand how passionate i'v become!
Coincidentally.... one of my assignments for Music appreciation (oh man, the assignments 4 tis modules are killing me) is to write about Jazz... it's root, and blah blah blah.... so cool ryt??? mmm....
aaahhh!! nwas besides that, i cunt wait to learn drums and play it like reali fantastically... i m crazy about ALOT of things and one of them is learning drums.. ask rachel, she wud telya.. lol.. once i was, like, telling this person how passionate i was about drums etc etc.. she popped in and commented that i m passionate about alot of things, and that i wana learn everything... mmm.... ALMOST everything... well, jus picked up the violin and m very happy with my teacher, He is really a gud teacher. cunt wait for the next class.... well, mmm..... wat else? i'l catch up wit u guys next time... ironically m listenin to 'if we hold on together" now.. lol... ciao!!!