"The word of God is sharper than a two-edged sword" - well, i think cos god Knows us deeper than anyone else, even those secrets that we don't know about ourselves.
Have not been blogging for quite long....... Have been havin a terrible time the past week accepting reality. We live in a world where things go the way we don't intend it to go. Like a wise saying goes, "Happiness is like a butterfly, if u chase after it, it will run away. But if u sit still, it will come to you" I guess God has been applying this quite often in my life. At times, He does things for me that i wud have never thought about. Getting into the Singapore Symphony Chorus, A sense of security in monetary terms concerning my studies, wonderful friends who are always there for me even at 4am in the morning. But I sort of realised that the problem is not with God, nor with me not doing what i shud be doing but With Me doing beyond what I shud be doin.
People have always said that creative people are emotionally imbalance, and many a times i have proved them right. Just last week i had this thought of giving up what i was doing, as it seems to be taking me nowhere. For me, time is a very significant element and extending my period of studies (not because i have not finis my course in time, but becos i have to wait for my fellow students to finis their course so that we can start the next level together) seems to be the button that triggers me (ALL the TIME) I Guess i have to realise that a thousands years is a day to God and a day is a thousand years.
well, so the other night I cunt handle this depression, the thought was too much for me, being 20 and not making it!! so i tried calling up my parents but somehow the line did not go through. Then, I smsed Meron and told him how I was feeling but he seemed to be tired so i dropped the idea of telling him further. But i was feeling so down tht i needed to talk to someone, so I ended up calling Alan. He is someone who has known me for quite a number of years, seen me grow up and knows about my various emotional waves. Well, it was 4am in the morning, but he was ever so willing to sort out my probs, I thank God for his words of encouragement and stuffs, cos i m now much better and not at all depressed. I have realised that problems or strange thoughts starts creeping in when i focus on myself and not on God.
Alan sort of showed me that life is not about getting what you'v expected, but getting even better than what you have ever dreamed off. Yes, I will Hang in there and slowly unfold all the good things that God has in store for me.
well guys, i have one last thing to share before i sign off. Well, I have like many christians, always wanted God to tell me something through preachers or stuffs like that. And as usual, i was asking God last sunday, "WHAT dya have for me today?" and as soon as i finished asking God that Question, the preacher said, "God does not need to reveal to you through a prophetic word/words, every single thing that you do or every natural occurances in your life is a word from God" (Well, I paraphased it a litle bit)
Have not been blogging for quite long....... Have been havin a terrible time the past week accepting reality. We live in a world where things go the way we don't intend it to go. Like a wise saying goes, "Happiness is like a butterfly, if u chase after it, it will run away. But if u sit still, it will come to you" I guess God has been applying this quite often in my life. At times, He does things for me that i wud have never thought about. Getting into the Singapore Symphony Chorus, A sense of security in monetary terms concerning my studies, wonderful friends who are always there for me even at 4am in the morning. But I sort of realised that the problem is not with God, nor with me not doing what i shud be doing but With Me doing beyond what I shud be doin.
People have always said that creative people are emotionally imbalance, and many a times i have proved them right. Just last week i had this thought of giving up what i was doing, as it seems to be taking me nowhere. For me, time is a very significant element and extending my period of studies (not because i have not finis my course in time, but becos i have to wait for my fellow students to finis their course so that we can start the next level together) seems to be the button that triggers me (ALL the TIME) I Guess i have to realise that a thousands years is a day to God and a day is a thousand years.
well, so the other night I cunt handle this depression, the thought was too much for me, being 20 and not making it!! so i tried calling up my parents but somehow the line did not go through. Then, I smsed Meron and told him how I was feeling but he seemed to be tired so i dropped the idea of telling him further. But i was feeling so down tht i needed to talk to someone, so I ended up calling Alan. He is someone who has known me for quite a number of years, seen me grow up and knows about my various emotional waves. Well, it was 4am in the morning, but he was ever so willing to sort out my probs, I thank God for his words of encouragement and stuffs, cos i m now much better and not at all depressed. I have realised that problems or strange thoughts starts creeping in when i focus on myself and not on God.
Alan sort of showed me that life is not about getting what you'v expected, but getting even better than what you have ever dreamed off. Yes, I will Hang in there and slowly unfold all the good things that God has in store for me.
well guys, i have one last thing to share before i sign off. Well, I have like many christians, always wanted God to tell me something through preachers or stuffs like that. And as usual, i was asking God last sunday, "WHAT dya have for me today?" and as soon as i finished asking God that Question, the preacher said, "God does not need to reveal to you through a prophetic word/words, every single thing that you do or every natural occurances in your life is a word from God" (Well, I paraphased it a litle bit)
