Pre-xmas concert!! 3rd dec...

hey dear bloggie n dear frens... sorri for abandoning you n not bloggin for long......
Jus had the pre-xmas concert... it was sooooo Good... everything was perfect.... better than "september recital" although the turn-up of peopl was only around 300 or so... cos now is the festive period n everyone is busy...

Nwas my choir... Coronation choir.. I form a new choir, thereby i'm the official conductor of Coronation choir... haha... sang very well.... my other choir, where i help our as pianist plus assitant-choir master... performed very well too......

and I made one gown specifically for this show... and i was gifted another gown by my best fren... so i dint have to buy two... hahaha........

well, i sang "somewhere" from westside story.. and "river of dreams".........
my brother, benry moses, sang "your raise me up" and "believe".. and a duet called "the prayer" with amongbi...
Amongbi also sang grown-up christmas list....

n tomor m goin up to wokha, another district, and we were having a concert there on the 6th... audience turn up will b more there... we will have more than 3000 audience apparently... so m sooo excited... the more audience the better... hahahaha


till them love u all

Home Alone..

We have the house to ourselves babe... !!! woo-hoo... my parents have left for wokha and will be back only on monday.. which means 3-full-days-and-one-half day- without-them.... So on thrusday, the night before they left, we (me, my bro moses and sis khristin) were just pulling thier leg and telling them in a very convincing way that, "we'll be having a party!!! since you're not there!!" n both of them were like giving us th blank look... hahaha....

Nwas have been doing the cooking along with my maid Rita... and yea its interesting.... Cos everybody is enjoying it... like i don't cook when i have a choice not to... so now since mum is not there.. i;ve to... and lately my brother has been complaining to mum that her dishes r getting boring.. so guess for the next 3 days i'll liven up the dishes... We went shopping today for chicken.. FIRST time... I mean mum or dad usuali buy the chicken and then i cook... i don't go n buy... so took my bro n Noah down to the market... so tonight's menu is "Avoni's style chicken" well you'v to taste it to like it... not the indian style k, if u r wondering... no turmeric n all those spicces... n then "Pasta with White sauce" yup...

and uno.. its crazy, ,,, since my parents r not here... guess what we had for lunch??? Ice-cream with bread... and chocolate-chip biscuit... n fanta,,, lol.. not healthy at all... okies buy for now...

September recital

I really thank God for being with me and the whole Gloden Crown family through this recital. It has been one of my MOST satisfactory work... EVER!!! I'm really really grateful to God for making this show a success. All the performances, staring from the Choir was superb. On a lighter tone, i joked with my Choir members and asked them, "wow! You surprised me?" not that they don't sing well, but because they sang better than expected. They opened the show by singing "For the beauty of the Earth" by John rutter. And I say they did justice to the composer by singing very well. Really proud of them. Guess all the hard work is finally paying off..
All the Voice students really sang their solo perfectly, and they Looked so cute in their costumes. Since they were singing songs of different genre, i made them dress up according to the song they sang..
And the funny part of this concert is that, one of my piano solos, which i dedicated to my first piano teacher, went double time. I played twice the speed i practiced, cos i was nervous... nervous not cos m performing, just nervous of whether she would like the song or not.
And my daddy was really surprise when i dedicated my second piano solo to him and mum. He was not aware that i would dedicate it to him. :)
and finally, i m extra happy with my band... they backed me up really well... everybody, the two guitarist, bassist, drummer, violinist, pianoist... everybody really did well... And I m darn excited that i got to sing one of my favourite song... :)

Phew... and today... i got up early n then slept again... the whole morning... Cos i m was damn tired.. but then around 11am i got a sms from my cousin asking me to come to her music center and give words of encouragement to her students... So i went along with Noah and Da-eun... sang two songs, "smoke gets in your eyes" and "my heart will go on" and noah played two piano pieces... ;) okies thats all for now... bye bye.. :)

A trip to the Beauty Salon wit my sis...

Hurray... after weeks n months of tiring and gruelling labour.. i finally managed to squeeze some ME-time... hehe... yea so today I went to the salon with my sister and it was just so refreshing and relaxing.... :) man, the beautician really knows her stuffs... "good hands" i would say... Nwas my sister is blessed with abundant hair on the legs, so she did half-leg waxing and then "deep-cleansing facial"... And yeah this is the first time my 17-year-old-sis-who-is-an-inch-taller-than-me is getting a facial... :)... and I did the normal facial... actually normal here means deep-cleansing-plus-somthing-else thingy... normal in the sense for adult-skin... My sister in her straight-tone joked that only the old-people-with-weathered-skin-gets-the-normal-facial... and she on the other hand gets the deep-cleansing one cos her skin is soft and baby-like.. LAme ryt?? yea that she is.. nwas after my facial, i went for pedicure.. haha.. i pity the beautician who did my foot... cos it was darn dirty... like not the smelly dirty... but uno, i have this bad habit of noy wearing slippers at home, hence my feet are like rough with a lot of dead skin.. haha... well... all that's gone now.,.. it's soft as a baby's now... :)

I love beauty salon... mmm... next time i wana go for full body massage... :)

Schedule...

OKie... long time huh?? just don't the time to blog, cos after a long day i jus zonked out... well my dear frens, jus for update's sake.... look at my crazy schedule...

WEDNESDAY
Morning: Wake up, read newspaper, breakfast.
9AM ONWARDS- Study (psst for those who don't know, m taking B.A (english honors) through distance-learning) Study hour is quite funny... for the past week, i;ve fallen asleep thrice reading MACBETH.. haha..... Then the interesting thing is, i'm taking Nutrition as one of my subjects... So it's nightmare for my sweet daddy... As i'm like always checking on his health... and his like super FAT...
11AM- GIve piano lesson. (coaching one of our teachers.. )
12pm - light lunch...
12:30pm- Give Voice lesson
1pm - piano lessons again...
1;30pm - 3pm - Practice with my band... (yeah m soo excited, cos finally i took up the courage to open up my heart and cut myself open to my students by giving them my songs and yeah!! we are now practicing my songs... how cool is that?? )
3pm - 4:30 - Piano lessons again...
Around 5pm - 6pm - DINNER... yeah!!
6pm - go for a walk....
730pm -help out a student who gona take exams, voice from ABRSM...
830 - practice piano (gettin ready for the concert.. )
930pm - prayer meeting...
10;30 - tea... haha....

THrusday....
wake up, newspaper, breakfast...
9am - Practice piano....
11:10am - 12pm - Teach.. (Ear-training)
12pm - light lunch..
12:30 pm - 2pm - CHOIR CLASS.. (most tiring.. )
2pm - 4pm - MASTERCLASS (for all the voice student... )
4pm - 5:30 pm - Piano lessonas again....
6pm - dinner...
I was darn tired that i took ME_TIME... slack, check mail, facebook-ing... then ofcourse practiced abit with my brother as he is also going to sing for the concert...

Okies enough of my schedule.. SEE this is how crazy I get when i m darn tired.... hehe....
okies... tomor i;m having prac wit my band again... and this time my friend Yanzo is goin to help me out by playing the violin... yay!!! full band man...

work...

its been a while since I've blogged, owing to all the extra work I've levied upon myself. I guess it's part of growing up. Earlier, I would never work over-time, and even if I did I would calculate the extra hours and ask for "extra money" from my parents. haha... Its not easy having your parents as your employer. Sometimes you get paid lesser than you deserve, sometimes they just give you more than you deserve. But over the past few weeks, adding up to months, I've learnt to take ownership of my daddy's college and treat it as my own. Hence, the birth of a new person, Avoni-the-workaholic.
It's funny but I get high when i work these days. Like i look forward to screwing those lazy students. I am seriously working and stressing the students due to the upcoming events. A concert in september (mainly a student's recital, but only the exceptional students will perform; so they have to go through auditions; and my dad says, " teachers must perform as well" so its kinda gona be a big recital, hence named it concert) and the Pre-christmas concert. The college Conductor Amongbi and I are working tirelessly with the students for this even, because daddy and all of us, are planning this year's pre-christmas concert to be a big-show-event-types.

Well, other than that, I'm bored, not cos i'm not busy but cos i need entertainment. hahaha.... i want to meet up with friends and hang out, or just chill and relax or stuffs like that... just be free... and enjoy my youth.. nwas i'll just dream on...

today's the day..

today's the day i'll b having my surgery.. i had to wait for two days due to my weak eyesight.. -10... haha.. n also cos of the side-effects from my contacts... actually I'm more eager than nervous.. i wana get it done and over with... cos for the past two days i'v been missing out on the world camp.. its weird seeing myself so "ON" in attending this camp.. otherwise, honestly sometimes preaching and bible stuffs bores me out... i love the Lord and all very much.. but at times preachers seem to be soooo boring hence the apathy.. but this time, i guess God opened up my heart.. i will blog about the main points that touched me, once i m home n more settled k.. :)
well.. today i saw another miraculous thing.. i saw a crescent moon at around 11am, along with the sun shining extremely bright.. courtesy of the nurse.. she was like, "Avoni, come come.." and i was wondering, "what's going on?" i thought i had to take another test.. but no.. it was the beautiful moon.. ;)
okies.. enough for today.. take care.. byeeee...

jinju.. to daacheon..

reached jinju today.. i still miss jeju island... but i had a fun time toady.. finally got some free time to SHOP... n i L>O>V>E shopping.. its like my second skin... i shopped sooo much,,, things is korea r cheap n of good quality... i love shopping in korea... i didn't realise that i bought so much, until the people at the bus saw my big shopping bag n went.. "oh whoa.. !" and i went red.. hah!!! it always feels good when i shop.. mmmm... tonight i m goin to deacheon (sorry if the spelling is wrong.. ) and there i will have my surgery... perfect eyesight at last.. and i get to shop again.. hehe.. gona spend every dime... ;)

Jeju islands..

I just L.O.V.E jeju.. its so undefiled.. so pure.. n so serene... yet not far from civilization... ah...
y'day had a great time at the beach... looking at the remains of the halal mountain.. (due to volcanic eruption.. today had a great time horse riding and go-carting.. ;)..

take care... write another time... gotta go now... ;)

korea...

well.. m in kolkata right now.. will b flying to korea tomor... m so excited... going for two reasons... first, global youth camp... in jeju islands.. two, for lazer operation for my eye.. perfect eyesight here i come..
m tired now... will blog another time.. :)

broken and contrite spirit...

For the past week, we had four korean missionaries staying at our place. It was fun trying to understand what they were saying and also getting the opportunity to cook (for them.. )
In the midst of all that they wanted to have bible fellowship wit me, and all... Well, after the first fellowhip they told me that I should open up my heart... This is one of my major flaws (or strength..) cos althought i might seem to be extremely open and carefree.. (which i m btw.. ) but in reality I don't open up to people that much... i just show them the "happy me". what's inside my heart is known only to me n God alone... Don't get me wrong... I m not one of those super-introvert n cunning n calculative type.. infact i hate those type... but sometimes i put up my defence when i feel insecure or wen i don feel comfortable... To my friends and close ones i DO NOT PUT UP MY DEFENCE K.. i will if i find that i dont trust them anymore.. so when i put up my defence you can almost feel the chill... So for this reason, they asked me to open up my heart.. another reason would be because i m not easily impressionable... i don take things at face value, i.e, if u want me to believe in something I would not readily accept it, unless i'v thought through n prayed about it..
well, one of the missionaries said.. "avoni, you are always happy and smiling, but that is the conscience part of you that's trying to cover up what's inside of u... since you are the eldest, you r always exhaulted by your siblings.. and your parents love u very much, so even though they r worried they don't show you, you have a very sheltered life... that's y.. blah blah blah... "
He was trying to tell me how our "good conscience" may not neccesarily be from God.. but from devil... cos by and through out "good conscience" we try to hide and suppress our sins, which should not be the right way... we should not suppress out sins but let it out to God.. that's what he was trying to tell me... that i'v over time built up my defences too much..
well... i'v shared it all.. n i don't think i hide or suppress or anything.. but i didn't want to let them debate n prolong our fellowship so i just let them say what they want.. hehe... :)

tired but happy...

Don't you just love that "sweet" feeling you get after a long tiring day?? A sense of accomplishment, of security... Knowing that you are not useless but of value, hence the demand for your time... Today would be one of my most tiring day... Got up, breakfast, read a couple of christian magazines (all those testimonies and preaching stuffs... ); coached (piano) one of my staffs.. (cos we, i.e. my parents and I saw the need to upgrade her skills... ) Then.. taught dance to 5 energetic kids.. (m choreographing for some opening ceremony.... ).. Finally COOKed... made pasta with white sauce, fried rice, boiled lady's finger etc etc.... ah... M so darn tired... but happy.. :)

Curious play...

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Well, these days I'v been RE-watching this japanese anime that I once watch as a kid. Say, when i was about 11 or 12 years old. "Curious play".. now don't snigger or anything, cos i know u'v watched it as well.. .. Its this tiring effort of several good-will people to accomplish a mission, with the help of a girl (from the other world.. ie.. OUR world) nwas today i don't intend to enlighten "thee" on the whole complete non-edited "avoni's narration" on this show.. but well... one this one aspect that i simply droll about...
It's the love that "maika and Tamahome" share that simply makes me go.. "aaahhh....!" (with a gentle exclaimation) hehe.... they are from two totally different world and time... ancient china and present tokyo... but they create a miracle with their love for each other and even breaks the laws of heaven... they were destined to be seperated and were doomed to live without each other, obviously because they were from different world... once maika finishes her mission, she goes back to her 'real world" and tamahome (ancient china) can't enter the real world.. but the miracle is that.. HE does... simply because he made a promise that he'll always be by her side and love and protect her till his last breath... oh.... n this is not the only thing... "you are the reason that i live.." just imagine your dream "prince" saying that to you... mmmm...... :)
okies... enough of all these... time to get back to the 'real' world...

how some irritating DHL guy can spoil ur mood....

Recently ella helped me parcel my books and some stuffs from singapore to here... and its darn irritating these DHL people in INDIA... delhi to be particular.. I don't intend to be racist.. i love all colours and cultures... but its when they try to suck your blood out that i get mad... THEY are &*%$#@#$ asking me to pay about $400 singapore dollars.. about 10,000 rupees.. so that i can retrive my belongings.. how screwed up is that? my stuffs are worth about $500 dollars max.. about that... n now i'v to pay like 80%??? so that i can get my old stuffs back?? its daylight robbery... i HATE DHL people in DELHI .. they can go to hell..!! screw you "DHL " in delhi... its as if i m buying back my old stuffs... now i cant handle them on my own.. so daddy's helping me out... He's talking with them... hopefully it'll all be alright.. please please pray for me.. i need my books... if its like other things like clothes n stuffs.. i wunt even bother to get it back.. those bloody greedy people can have it... but i want my BOOKS... damn it~!!!!!

loved...

Somtimes we don't realise just how blessed we are until we "count our blessings"
It's weird how we only want more and more and more out of life and continually task God to give us the impossible.. but how many times do we sit back, relax and wonder at all the impossibilities that He has done for us? Many a times i forget to do too...
But recently, after one of my complaining sessions to my father God.... i was just lying down on my bed and stoning.... then suddenly, from the window i heard some of my students singing "What a friend we have in Jesus" (they didn't know what i was goin through.. but they were practicing their parts)... suddenly i forgot my depression and starting laughing... right after that, my brother started playing (very loudly) "who am I? - Casting crowns" (and he didn't know my state either..." this made me laugh even harder... how foolishly i'v thought that God didn't care.. but he certainly does give importance to details... :)
My parents are the most adorable pair.... and they've confirmed their cuteness (100%) through this exam i;m taking... daddy will never fail to drop me to the examination hall, no matter how busy he is, no matter how many pending works he has... then he will wait until i've finish taking my exams.. then fetch me back home.. how many dads would do this? I m just too lucky and grateful...
And mummy... will constantly listen to all my whims and fancies and try to fulfil them... like the cunningly avoni (ah tats me...) will lay still in bad, pretending not to be able to get up due to body-ache... then i'l simply raise my hand up in the air and mummy will take 'me' hand and lift me up.... Dad also gives me massages if i complain about my slight headache, so do mum... it does fel good to be pampered... I love exams for and only for this reason.. It's and excuse to be pampered... hehe.... ;) :)

Real..

What rachel said really jerked me back to reality.... how my gift was "being real".... well, sometimes to the point of being over-ly blunt, and hurting people as well... just becuase i cant fake it.. i just cant... its either black or white (...or pink.. hehe.. :) and i wana continue being real... but somtimes along the way i feel "short of".. as in "not good-enough"... i wana serve God with all my heart, strength, soul.... but sometimes i know i just cant...
well, y'day I was just having one of "these talks" with daddy... and he just made a very big deal out of it... i was telling him how scared i was.. of all the uncertainties in my life.. i donu where i m goin and stuffs... then, he just got pretty frustrated with me and told me straight that i was being imature and not listening to God... and ten i said, "all these years i've been listening to him.. but he never gives me a clear direction... everything in life has a system... u get concieved, ten birth, ten u r a day old.. a week n through that processs u grown up.. but with God, its haphazard... nothing is in order.. i just want him to tell me or show me where i am heading to.. "
Then at this moment.. somthing he said jerked me (but i did not admit at that moment)... "well, then u r lord of ur life.. if u r saying so.. then u r not letting God be the lord of ur life... u r ur master.. "
yup!!! isn't it like tat with many of us... we want him to be the Lord of our life.. but we don't give up our dominance as well.. :)
well there's a sort-of poem i wrote... will be posting up in facebook.. its called "scared"

wats wrong wit me.....

i just yelled at mummy... why?? COS she irrtated me!!!
to make matters worst.. I'v been diagonized with chronic throat infection!!! PLUS i just came back from class (teaching fundamentals of music.. ) so just imagine how irritable i must have been... its difficult enough for me to talk.. and i had no choice so i took the class, which means i have been talking non-stop for an hour.. and for goodness sake MY THROAT HURTS!!
And here she comes.. just poking me with her stupid... AHHHH,,,,,, she's like JERRY (from tom n jerry..) just poking me quietly with her stupid words.. and making me scream.. God damn it!!

I donu why things like this just happens to me.. AT times.. i just cant control!!!...
I try.. i really do.. but... damn it...
like... i try to discipline myself and read the bible.. but most of the time.. i just miss my quiet time... its not that i don'[t wana do.. but i just cant discipline myself enough to do it.. and... aya.. alot of stuffs..
People.. i m not perfect,,, not even a good christian... haiz... its so difficult..
I need a trickle of faith to turn my dirty self into something worthy...

God's plan ~

I happened to pick up a magazine, a few moments ago, and flipping through the pages, an ariticle by a Famous Russian Cellist "Dmitry Eremin" caught my attention. He is a Christian, Hurray for that!!! A particular sentence confirmed what had been coming on to me quite strongly these days... "if i had chosen the instrument I wanted to do would I be able to stand here?"
Well... let me give you the context of this amazing sentence...
He is a very well renowned cellist, born in a fmily of Musicians.. His grandfather (a famous bassoon player) rubbed shoulder with famous perssonnels like Mravinsky, Stravinsky and shostakovich.. (if you aren't into classical music,.. pardon me...) BUT initially.. he did not quite fancy playing the cello... Piano was the instrument he liked... and given a choice he would have choosen to be a pianist... but he goes on to say that... "you may have the same experience in your own life. Although you like doing this but MUST do another. God knows our future. He knows if we go this way what will happen."

Then at prayer meeting, dad was sharing about an article He read... Its about a bird called "ALbatross" As he read out, I began to realize that if we rely on our own strength we don't to realize our full potential.. it is only when we spread our wings and leave it to God that we soar the highest... Let me jus qoute some lines from this article...
"It does not rely upon the flapping of its wings. but entrusts itself the wind and the sky.... thus flies the highest and fastest" "it does not fly on the strength of flapping its wings.. BUT with the WISDOM...." "A hummingbird flaps 60 times a second. but lives 4 years at the most.. Flying higher and further withour flapping wings.. AN Albatross lives up to 40 years.."

Help me (and us) to rely entirely on you, Dear God.... :)

B'day.. 13th april...

mmm... the most borin b'day ever....
First of all.... this is indeed the sadest b'day ever!! MOST.. let me state again.. most of my friends, esp those whom i considered close (and whom i thought would never forget my b'day) did not wish me... until now.. they have not even wished me a belated b'day!!
I guess the older u get... b'days become even more boring...
Like i always had a party.. that is, until last year when i turned 20.. but last year was an interesting one.. cos my daddy wanted me to celebrate my b'day with the orphans and share (our blessings) with them!! but this year nothing... cud not even go for family dinner cos daddy had meeting... hmpf!!! nwas.... its a sign.. that m gettin old.. hahaha.....
Happy 21st to me!!!

songs... launching.. :)

I have always been a closet 'song-writer'... lyrics, melodies.. they come to me quite often.. sometimes at night when i have difficulties sleeping, at times when sitting down, doing nothing.. i do write them down.. but i never showcase them... sometimes i rarely complete them... But for the first time, I m going to be singing one of my songs at a function (a cocktail party - sort-of-ish). This, all thanks to daddy..
At times, i play the piano or sing for daddy... just for fun-sakes,.. and today i was playing my song to him (which i wrote y'day) and he was like, "wow.. avoni.. you should include this song in you upcoming performance. which song is this?"
Avoni: daddy.. this is my song.. the one i wrote y'day..
dad; really?? this is good... include this..
And he even asked Amongbi (music teacher in our college) to listen to my song... haha.. so excited..

here's the lyrics....
Sitting here, in my room
only comforts, No pain.
strolling down, down the streets;
unmasking all the faces, all around me..
where all the colors are revealed...

Let us do this together,
forcing all the good thats in us to rise...

short time; together..
brings out, great yield...
I can do this, with all of you..
let us put our faith in soveriegn hands..
Put all our hope into His hands..

Let's create a whole new world
Of peace and harmony
Put all our differences away
Look into a new world
Renewed and fresh refill of grace...

The last stanza is an addition... :)

Personality test... ;-)

took this personality test online.. out of boredom.. n here r some key points i thought is quite true..

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

Kind and GentleYour kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.

patience...

I seem to run out of patience these days...
What can I do?? It's nothing to do with everday life and how i handle situations. but its my dear students...
Most of my students are great... And i m quite patient with all of them... But this particular student, I m having difficulties holding my cool... When i correct the others, they get it.. maybe not at once, but after the second or the third time.. THEY get it!! but this student... I have corrected her mistakes a zillion times but she continues to make them again... its frustrating...
Week after week, it's the same old mistakes that i m correcting... it's just tiring...
please pray for me.. need more patience...
I wonder if God ever feels like this... i mean reckoning all the mistakes that we make... No matter how much He corrects us.. we tend to fall again and AGAIN.... and at times, fall into the SAME sin... man, I'm going to try to be better now... But definitely God has more patience then me.. undoubtedly..

Sweetness OVERLOAD....

Mum and dad.... The sweetesst creatures on this earth... I simply can't stop raving about them. ofcourse, they are difinitely not perfect but they are just great... They have their irritating moments, but hey, To err is human.... I really did not want to blog about them AGAIN.. but their sweetness was too much that I just could not resist writing about it...

Mum and I...
I had a tiring day.... playing (piano) at a wedding... so right after i got back..... mummy was like "why don't you rest abit before your classes?"
FYI: Just started teaching piano and voice.. mainly because i love spending money.. and I don't lke spending my parent's money.... (of cus when i do spend their money. i do in bulks.. lol)

Then while i was in the shower.. mum came in..
Mum: I thought Avoni wanted to rest... (I could hear from the bathroom)
Avoni: I'l shower first..
Mum: you might not get enough time..
Avoni: nah.. its k..

Then i was peacefully taking my nap... never slept so well in my entire life..
While i was still sleeping.. mum came in n saw that I did not put any blanket.. So she took a shawl and spread it over me.... (this i knew cos she told me later.. )

After some time.. mum came to wake me up...
Mum: Avoni. avoni.. (gently.. and she was gently massaging my arms and rubbing my back.. )
Avoni: mmm...
Mum: Avoni, wake up.. its almost time..
Avoni: oh ok.. (stil in slumberland.. )
Mum: I put shawl over u earlier.. no?? (trying to telll me what she did for me.. hahaha... ;-)
Avoni: oh ok.. thanks.. What time is it now?
Mum: almot 2;30..

Dad... this is even sweeter...
i was really craving for this pastry.. so i called up my dad..
Avoni: What time will you reach home??
Dad: i donu.. (sensing that i wanted something.. ) What is it??
Avoni: can u buy me Khruma?? i really wana eat that...
Dad: ok...

Later when mum and dad came back home... They told me the difficulties they went through to get what i want..
Mum: there.. your khruma is in the kitchen...
Avoni: thank you thank u.. (in a sweet tone.. )
Mum: we search over 10 shops for it.. (i think like all women, she might have exaggerated... )
Dad: but u said u wanted to eat.. so i kept of searching..
Mum: yea.. I told your daddy.. that we'll stop searching.. but he wanted to get it for you..

So sweet.. na?? hahha... love them....

22nd Anniversary... :-)

4th of march 1987, the happiest day for the two most important person in my life.. The day that brought forth a new beginning.. A day that my parents vowed to each other.. To love and to cherish, for better or for worst.. till death do us (them) part...

It has been 22 year since they got married.. they know the worst of the other... the best... and still are so much in LOVE.. one cannot live without the other... and one is in cloud 9 when the other is around... This is the perfect example of how a marriage should be like.. full of love, PASSION... even after all the wrinkle years, the unwanted fats accumulated around the waist, hip n butt; over the years.. The physical eye dims due to age but that will never stop them from looking at each other with the same eye as they first met....

My dad use to tell me.. like before they did the formal engagement and way before the wedding.. He would ask his driver to move to the passenger sit.. WHY?? cos he could not stand to waste a single sec.. a sec that he could have spend wit his dearest... So he drove fast.. furiously... so that he could reach his destination (and at that point of his life.. it would b paradise for him)...

Here is a song, usually sung at weddings.. I really LOVE this song.. read it.. its so touching.. :-)

Morning Comes, and I must go;
Day is breaking yonder
After all the places i have been,
Now i'm going home.

I have been to seek the sky.
To travel on the highway.
And the time has come
I don't know why
I'm going home.
Where is the answer to so many questions?
I don't know, so i begin another journey.
Where the meaning for my world,
See the answer now.

Though we come by different roads,
Now we walk together.
Stay beside me,
All our days, Strangers never more.
Through the cool of summer rains.
Bythe heartside fire,
Here I'll be with you
when nothing remains,
I am home to STAY.

LOVE is the answer to so many questions
Now i KNOW, and i can stop my endless wandering.
LOVE gives the MEANING to my WORLD,
I see the answer now.
Love is the answer. "LOVE"

Human Mind...

Do we really know who we are? Do we really believe in what we think we believe? I've asked myself this question, more than once. The REASON: sometimes I say things that I "think" is what i truly believe.. but end up doing the opposite. This maybe because of the struggle between human mind and human heart. The mind sets standards, goals and principles, which may or may not be benificial for oneself, but in the end its the heart that always leds a man/woman.
Like for example, like any young fellow I want to be successful in my career; in whatever i do so that there is an emmense sense of satisfaction. (but this satisfaction quickly dies off... ask around alot of successful people, career-wise, they'll tell u)... BUT when i really think about it... especially when i am alone... and am not effected by external factors, such as parents, society, friends... I think what i really want is to be able to raise a good family, just like my mum and dad did... when i raise Godly kids, then will I count myself successful. It's scary to think about what i am writing here, but go back, into your rooms and try thinking... you'll get your answer...
Only then will I count myself successful. Laughing and joking with my kids, teaching and disciplining them... yea..
And that's excatly what my heart wants..
My mind wants to be successful in my field...
My heart wants success in something thats deeper than just a well-paid job...
And in the end.. I bet the heart will win..
See that's what i mean... no matter how you condition your mind to follow a certian trend.. your heart still rules...
Don't you think..??

Btw.. there is always, always, always and always an internal conflict in our mind.. so who do you trust?? Mind?? heart?

THou Must Overcome Cravings...

I have just been doing well, with my new health program... that is until today... On top of my usual breakfast, lunch. dinner and supper... I ate the most destructive food ever found in human history,... JELEBEE... its and Indian dessert that is LOADED with CALORIES... one alone is enough to make u fat.... AND I ATE 9 of these.... for those who don't know what this dessert is,, ask ur indian frens.. or refer to the picture above..

Avoni.... moderation is the word........

Jewel..

What does it feel like to be called a "jewel"? At times parents don't really compliment their kids.. but what they don't realize is that paying a compliment, does more than jus making your kids feel wonderful.
I was watching TV y'day.. and suddenly dad came out of his room and told me.
Dad: I m happy when you are happy..
Avoni: (just smile..)
Dad: I m happy when u r happy.. and i m sad when u r not happy....
Avoni: (still smiling.. ) why so daddy?
Dad: because you are my jewel..
Then he walked down the stairs..

You see giving compliments, enables ur kids to have more confident in themselves.. and secured in every sense... muacks.. !!!

Cute things my dad does...

I was in my room, and suddenly i heard my dad callin/yellin for me. so i rush down to see what happened. Then there he was at the gas stove, with a spoon in hand and eating the fried rice, STRIAGHT from the frying pan. He hand over his spoon to me and said:-
Dad: here.. here.. Avoni.. eat this..
Avoni: (laughin) haha... erm.. You eat it..
Dad: C'mon.. try this.. it was made for moses.. leftover.. its good..
Avoni: (still laughin) I'l eat it later.. (in an attempt not to eat.. hahaha)
Dad: no no.. eat now.. its warm now.. later it will become cold.. che che.. eat.. eat..
Avoni: (laughing.. and thinking how childish my dad has become. ) mmm... its nice..
Dad: See thats why i called you to eat..
Avoni: (continues laughin.. )

ANOTHER INCIDENT..
Dad was working in his office. Then i went over to call someone/or do something/aya i forgot for what., hahah.. nwas then he was coming out of the Chapel.. and seeing me he called out my name, then i was like "hi daddy.." and waited for him to come.. As soon as he reached me, He raised his hand (in hi-five manner..) and said.. "c'mon hi-five" then i was like feeling awkward and shy (cos his students were there.. ) and I just said, "okok.. here..' and gave him a hi-five.. ten still he ask for somemore.. hahaha...
My cute daddy..

My cat...

My cat.. my very cute cat...

Loves to be pampered and cared for.. just like muah...

she's the cutest u can get..

Purrs n meows everytime i m around.. probably fishing for attention..

When i m busy or at the computer... she'l climb up my chair and rub her soft body against my back, my arms, or play with my clothes..

and when she, out of her playful nature, starts straching me, i give her "that" look, after which.. she purrs softly, luks at me with a disappointed face and silently goes away..

It gets funnier.. Like when i go to the loo.. she will hurriedly follow me.. and accompany me there... and wait for me until i m done.. (like a good galfren.. hehe..)

Whenever i try to trick her into not following me.. she is even quicker... follows me up and down the stairs.. in and out of rooms.. finally i get rid of her by closing the door shut before she comes in..

Whenever i m in the kitchen.. she'l give me "that" purr... the kind thats says. gimme food...

and when i give her, she'l keep quiet but not eat the food.. because apparently she has ALREADY been fed.. but she just wants my attention..

such a cute animal..

Makes me feel so wanted...

muacks.. !!

Conversation wit MUM..

Preview: Mum and Dad had been out-of-station from friday until today (sunday) They went for some kinda picnic, which i was unable to go for various reasons.. LOL.. Nwas they call home from time-to time to check on us. So y'day being Valentines day, I decided to give them a scare..
I was out y'day not celebrating V'day, but to help my two kids (not biological okie? so get that out of ur mind.. lol) whom i mentor in singing.. (as they had to sing today..) At that time Mum calls..
MUM: Hello.. how r u?
Avoni: good..
MUM: can I talk to MIRANDA? (btw.. miranda is my cousin who lives wit us.. she is like second-mummy.. cos she's like totally incharge of the house wen mum's not there.. hahaha.. )
Avoni: I m out.. What is it?
Mum: U r out? Where?
Avoni: oh.. ofcourse i m out.. today's Valentines day.. uno.. (said in an animated voice.. )
Mum: What? where? with whom??
Avoni: i'l tell you when u get back..
Mum: tell me.. where.. which restuarant.. where exactly are you? (she spoke non-stop)
Avoni: I said i will tell you when you come back.. (still laughin.. )
Mum: Aya.. don't hide.. c'mon..
Avoni; just tell me what you have to tell miranda.. then i'l call her and pass the messsage..

END..

TODAY>. SUNDAY.. Mum calls again... i m in the Loo.. so brother picks up..
Mum: hey where did Avoni go y'day?
Benry: Avoni? I don know.. (blur blur.. ???)
Mum: ya saturday.. where did she go? was she at home?
Benry: I think she was at home?
Mum: R u sure..?
Then at that moment.. i hear from my bathroom...
Avoni: (SHOUTING...) I went out y'day.. (in an attempt to carry out my bluffing to the end.. )
Benry: oh oh.. mummy she was out y'day..
Mum: ask her with who?
Benry: Aya.. you ask her..
Avoni: Tell her i'l tell her later.. when she back..
Benry: che che.. she'l tell you later.. so wait ok.

END.. Then later after she get back home.. She asks sister, where i went and with whom i went y'day.. my sis knows about my plan, so she goes along and tells her,, i don't know..

Dad: so where were u y'day?
Avoni: out.. c'mon its V-day..
Mum: C'mon tell me with whom..
avoni: why don't you guess?? It mit be someone you know..
Mum: Oh oh i know.. ******* (she tells the name of a person, someone whom both mum n dad likes very much.. 0
dad: is it?
Avoni: mmm.. how did you know?
Dad: (speaks confidently..) cos your mum dreamt about it.. her dreams are never wrong..
Mum: yeah.. i dreamt about it..
Avoni: (laughing...) hahha.. wow.. u r really great...
Then suddenly my other cousin who lives with us (name: Ren), could not bear to hear all this bluffin..
Ren: (she laughs out.. ) hahaha.. both of you have been bluff.. haha. see thats why u must not believe dreams.
Avoni: hahahah.. I m really goood in bluffing..

END...

Story... Real life and fantasy.. MEET..

Recently i have been trying my hand at writing a story, like a novel. And hence i thought maybe i will mix real life events so as to make it realistic and so that people can connect to it...
But all the events happening around me now seems too unreal to be believed by people although it DID happen... Only those that i have fantasized appeared mor real than the real events..

Sometimes i wonder why bad things happen to good people.. but amidst all that we know that God has his hand in all this so HIS best is the best for all, although it may seem unfair for now..

Recently my brother has lost two of his best friends in a bike accident and the third one is still under treatment in the hospital... one spot dead.. but the other had to undergo alot, he was in a coma from the day of the accident until the day he died.. (from 26th jan until feb 9) sometimes i wonder, why God had not woken him even once, so that he can talk to his parents even if it is for the last time... He was a very intelligent, handsome, tall and good boy.. and most of all YOUNG.. he had sooo much to live... nwas whatever happened, God had his good intention...

teaching...

Seems like teaching is also one of my many passion.. filling in for dad and amongbi is so interesting.. like the feeling that i get while interacting with the students (of which most are way older than me, cos it is a seminary) or while expaining.. or that joy that you feel when they tell you.. ,"thats why we like you.." I tell you.. everyone of you should try teaching!!! Also my knowledge abuot the subject also grows, cos now all that i have learnt from my teachers are now put to practice and furthermore, i m doing further research, so that more beneficial!!! hah!!

Saturday!!! This coming saturday is also goin to be an exciting day...
LIke our church (the traditional one...) has this junior choir.. where the members are small and cute.. so this saturday i was asked to give them a seminar on music (theory and vocal..) so i m now brainstorming how to teach them...
Its quite interesting cos teaching them will be diffirent from teaching adults.. so i m planing to put in games and lots of activities, in between the lectures... LOL... hope they will be enlighten wit what i teach them...

Responsibilities!!!

Dad and one of his teachers has gone for two weeks to attend a conference in Malaysia.. well this leaves me with a BIG headache and a challenge... (LOve the latter but hate the former..) well.. since i will be here in nagaland for the two weeks that they are gone.. both of them entrusted me with their classes... so starting from tuesday i will be taking bible and music classes as well.. it will indeed be a challenging experience (for the bible.. cos music is quite manageable... but this is the first time i m going to be teaching bible subjects!!!) and so happens that my dad's classes are the modules that i have taken in TCA.. What a blessing!!! So in a way.. i will be deepening my learning by reasearching more, studying more.. (Cos thats what you do when u teach ryt??)... THOSE who are reading this.. PRAY FOR ME!!!!
But amidst all these challenges, the greatest joy that i will get is taking over the choir (since the teacher incharge is going with dad!!) i know its crazy but I LOVE conducting the choir.. Its not only teaching them a new choir piece.. but getting to grill them to a greater heights and then seeing them improve tremendously.. and also the respect that the choir members lavish upon the conductor!! LOL... And then when you see them perform, you can proudly say thats my choir!! Or sometimes (when they do badly) just be nervously sitting, or (barely sitting) and hoping that they will stop making mistakes!!! LOL...
BTW to all my FRENS in SINGAPORE.. I MISS you guys!!!! LOVE you.. and See you soon!!