JAZZ!!!

Jazz jazz... this sudden craze and frenzy love for jazz overpowered me... cunt stop listening to 'Jamie cullum' (He's cute... oh!) 'diana krall' 'frank sinatra' (so old ya.. lol) nwas i think it's such a beautiful and refreshing genre of music... I cunt wait to be playing it!!! despite not having a piano at hand, here in singapore, i sort of like try to imagine.. i hope imagining helps! lol! people don't laugh t meh ok? when u hear me talk about it.. like face to face.. then u will understand how passionate i'v become!
Coincidentally.... one of my assignments for Music appreciation (oh man, the assignments 4 tis modules are killing me) is to write about Jazz... it's root, and blah blah blah.... so cool ryt??? mmm....
aaahhh!! nwas besides that, i cunt wait to learn drums and play it like reali fantastically... i m crazy about ALOT of things and one of them is learning drums.. ask rachel, she wud telya.. lol.. once i was, like, telling this person how passionate i was about drums etc etc.. she popped in and commented that i m passionate about alot of things, and that i wana learn everything... mmm.... ALMOST everything... well, jus picked up the violin and m very happy with my teacher, He is really a gud teacher. cunt wait for the next class.... well, mmm..... wat else? i'l catch up wit u guys next time... ironically m listenin to 'if we hold on together" now.. lol... ciao!!!

life, seasons, new duties...

As the day passes, u no there's a bundle of things that u have yet to complete... well i have a feeling that the next 6 months will be like that!!! Although i'l b taking a break from TCA college, from all my creative studies (or rather from my carzy frens) I'l not be totally taking a break!!! Oh man, i better anounce to all my frens about my break!! ( I"L b leaving singapore for more than 6months)

For one, i have to help my dad. period. Ever since i left, he felt a gap in his music dept (not a big gap though hahahha), then consiquetively another main teaher left (for some reasons i will not discuss here,. LOL... a gal got to b discreet ok??/) then after that Albert (my Bro) left for his studies, a few months later Benry (my other brother left).... so u c he kinda feels a huge gap!!! SO MY DUTY IS TO GO BACK AND REVIVE the system, get the school moving to another level!! hopefully i can... (hey Avoni,, you can do all things through Christ who strengthens you!!! Amen)

Then my Next mission.. which is sort of connected to the first... I am planning to give non-stop recitals, mini concerts, parties... that will give awareness to the people that AVONI is back!!! yo yo.. kidding... i thought it might be helpful to strengthen the music department... maybe a silly thought but i will definitely c it through... so that even after i leave home and go back to pursue my desire,,, the dept would sort of be strengthened?? don you think so???

ok, then number three... to go back and continue with my studies, from where i left, not my creative arts one but my secular degree in english major... then atleast i would have a Bachelor degree.. muhahahhah.... LOL!!!

then number 4... to give music exams from ABRSM for my voice and further extend my piano as well... maybe if time permits i'l try to do more...

then number 5... save money and go for a holiday!!!!! yay!!! cos i know that once i get back to singapore and study i mit not get a chance to breathe and relax... so woo-hooo....

and now most importantly... i will have fun, enjoy, be pampered by mummy and daddy, and hahaha... atlast will get to c my room!!!! wee.... OH,,, now come to think of...i will really miss my frens in singapore????

Small, lil, tiny miracles....

well, there are alot of things that cud happen to us quite fruquently and they become a part of you. For me, dropping my phone at the wrong places (like a hard, solid, tough cemented ground) was a norm. God knows how many times i'v dropped it and still nothing happens, until y'day..... I dropped it at the lift and i really have no idea how i did it!!! then suddenly it went blank... the screen wunt display anything.... i cud sense a vibration now and then, it wud either b an sms or a call... but the screen was blank.... was terrified.. cunt survive without it man!!! then tod i'l repair it the next day (which is today) so went to those repair shop and asked how much it wud cost me... and the person told me it useless to repair cos it wud cost me $90 (so in a way, gettin new one is more worth it than repairing it) haiz!!! i was totally burning up, but kept my cool tho....

Ya, so i tod i'l get a new one.... mmm... din want to waste money gettin another one, wen i could use that money for other purposes!!! well, at that moment i said a prayer. Ask God to restore my phone!!! (let me tell u, i felt really silly, praying for my phone... others pray for storms, cancer etc.. well i prayed for my phone)

A hour or two, nothing happened, my phone was still not working.... well by now i have already forgotten about the prayer i pronounce...

well, my hands got ichy and i wanted to check if there were any progress... switch on my phone and TADA!!!! it was working...... i was jus stunned!!!! open my mouth and started shouting for joy!!! you know how hard i can scream!!!! well,..... this was a lesson for me... no matter how small the issue... God wants to b a part of you, He wants to take the lead place in Big and SMALL things as well........ yeah!!!!

Expectations!!!

"what do you expect of your future spouse?"
Pastor Anita popped that question at small group discussion y'day and left all of us speechless (which is not very usual in my group) Listening to the different people share was kinda interesting... They all think very alike and i was sort of alien to all those expectations that each one of them listed out!!! Here are a few....

Ella: He must be a handy person (like someone who can fix a broken bulb or chair etc) ** at this i went blur**

Samuel : I want her to be a housewife and raise the kids. **my reply wud be "what about her dreams and ambitions???"

Lewis: these days i'v been thinking about getting married. ** ding!!!**so straight-forward**

Jerry: Shud not shop so much. or buy something expensive and later come and shock me ** Hello gals love to shop,,,, so its a matter of who's money are u using to do that refreshing hobby**

"know how to cook" "must love kids" "need not be handsome" ** let me tell you at tis my nouth jus dropped** "must know how to manage finance cos i m very bad" etc etc... everyone jus starting popping like a popcorn....

THEN after a short while, they paused and asked who hasn't share... and tada,,, it was me... i din wana open my mouth.. i mean i don mind sharing but all the things they listed out were like so different from what i expected. I mean they were so specific, and i'v never tod of all these... so i replied, "I don wana say"
"Why not??"
"cos mine is so diff from yours and i mit sound superficial"
" it ok. jus tell us what you have in mind"
mmmm...... ya then i tod hey doesn't matter if they think i m weird or anything.. i jus went ahead... lol... Ya all those list!!! Tall, handsome, gud body (not too fat not too thin) must b manly enough to carry the colour PINK, smart and hard-working but not neccesarily rich (being rich is not in my list), must super pamper me and shud also be able to take all the pampering that i will pour out to him... blah blah blah,, the list goes on!!! But sadly i forgot to add the most important thing.. MUst be Godly!!!

Well!! then after all that she jus threw us another question
"you have all listed out your expectations, but what about your partner's expectation?"
Then she pointed out, that we may have expectations too,, but will be be able to bend our expectations abit for the expectations of our partner... ya n that put us to a silent mode again!!!

Well, nwas that lesson that i specifically learnt was that this small rule applies even in our ministry or other aspects. ** dealing with the expectations of others**