Human Mind...

Do we really know who we are? Do we really believe in what we think we believe? I've asked myself this question, more than once. The REASON: sometimes I say things that I "think" is what i truly believe.. but end up doing the opposite. This maybe because of the struggle between human mind and human heart. The mind sets standards, goals and principles, which may or may not be benificial for oneself, but in the end its the heart that always leds a man/woman.
Like for example, like any young fellow I want to be successful in my career; in whatever i do so that there is an emmense sense of satisfaction. (but this satisfaction quickly dies off... ask around alot of successful people, career-wise, they'll tell u)... BUT when i really think about it... especially when i am alone... and am not effected by external factors, such as parents, society, friends... I think what i really want is to be able to raise a good family, just like my mum and dad did... when i raise Godly kids, then will I count myself successful. It's scary to think about what i am writing here, but go back, into your rooms and try thinking... you'll get your answer...
Only then will I count myself successful. Laughing and joking with my kids, teaching and disciplining them... yea..
And that's excatly what my heart wants..
My mind wants to be successful in my field...
My heart wants success in something thats deeper than just a well-paid job...
And in the end.. I bet the heart will win..
See that's what i mean... no matter how you condition your mind to follow a certian trend.. your heart still rules...
Don't you think..??

Btw.. there is always, always, always and always an internal conflict in our mind.. so who do you trust?? Mind?? heart?

THou Must Overcome Cravings...

I have just been doing well, with my new health program... that is until today... On top of my usual breakfast, lunch. dinner and supper... I ate the most destructive food ever found in human history,... JELEBEE... its and Indian dessert that is LOADED with CALORIES... one alone is enough to make u fat.... AND I ATE 9 of these.... for those who don't know what this dessert is,, ask ur indian frens.. or refer to the picture above..

Avoni.... moderation is the word........

Jewel..

What does it feel like to be called a "jewel"? At times parents don't really compliment their kids.. but what they don't realize is that paying a compliment, does more than jus making your kids feel wonderful.
I was watching TV y'day.. and suddenly dad came out of his room and told me.
Dad: I m happy when you are happy..
Avoni: (just smile..)
Dad: I m happy when u r happy.. and i m sad when u r not happy....
Avoni: (still smiling.. ) why so daddy?
Dad: because you are my jewel..
Then he walked down the stairs..

You see giving compliments, enables ur kids to have more confident in themselves.. and secured in every sense... muacks.. !!!

Cute things my dad does...

I was in my room, and suddenly i heard my dad callin/yellin for me. so i rush down to see what happened. Then there he was at the gas stove, with a spoon in hand and eating the fried rice, STRIAGHT from the frying pan. He hand over his spoon to me and said:-
Dad: here.. here.. Avoni.. eat this..
Avoni: (laughin) haha... erm.. You eat it..
Dad: C'mon.. try this.. it was made for moses.. leftover.. its good..
Avoni: (still laughin) I'l eat it later.. (in an attempt not to eat.. hahaha)
Dad: no no.. eat now.. its warm now.. later it will become cold.. che che.. eat.. eat..
Avoni: (laughing.. and thinking how childish my dad has become. ) mmm... its nice..
Dad: See thats why i called you to eat..
Avoni: (continues laughin.. )

ANOTHER INCIDENT..
Dad was working in his office. Then i went over to call someone/or do something/aya i forgot for what., hahah.. nwas then he was coming out of the Chapel.. and seeing me he called out my name, then i was like "hi daddy.." and waited for him to come.. As soon as he reached me, He raised his hand (in hi-five manner..) and said.. "c'mon hi-five" then i was like feeling awkward and shy (cos his students were there.. ) and I just said, "okok.. here..' and gave him a hi-five.. ten still he ask for somemore.. hahaha...
My cute daddy..

My cat...

My cat.. my very cute cat...

Loves to be pampered and cared for.. just like muah...

she's the cutest u can get..

Purrs n meows everytime i m around.. probably fishing for attention..

When i m busy or at the computer... she'l climb up my chair and rub her soft body against my back, my arms, or play with my clothes..

and when she, out of her playful nature, starts straching me, i give her "that" look, after which.. she purrs softly, luks at me with a disappointed face and silently goes away..

It gets funnier.. Like when i go to the loo.. she will hurriedly follow me.. and accompany me there... and wait for me until i m done.. (like a good galfren.. hehe..)

Whenever i try to trick her into not following me.. she is even quicker... follows me up and down the stairs.. in and out of rooms.. finally i get rid of her by closing the door shut before she comes in..

Whenever i m in the kitchen.. she'l give me "that" purr... the kind thats says. gimme food...

and when i give her, she'l keep quiet but not eat the food.. because apparently she has ALREADY been fed.. but she just wants my attention..

such a cute animal..

Makes me feel so wanted...

muacks.. !!

Conversation wit MUM..

Preview: Mum and Dad had been out-of-station from friday until today (sunday) They went for some kinda picnic, which i was unable to go for various reasons.. LOL.. Nwas they call home from time-to time to check on us. So y'day being Valentines day, I decided to give them a scare..
I was out y'day not celebrating V'day, but to help my two kids (not biological okie? so get that out of ur mind.. lol) whom i mentor in singing.. (as they had to sing today..) At that time Mum calls..
MUM: Hello.. how r u?
Avoni: good..
MUM: can I talk to MIRANDA? (btw.. miranda is my cousin who lives wit us.. she is like second-mummy.. cos she's like totally incharge of the house wen mum's not there.. hahaha.. )
Avoni: I m out.. What is it?
Mum: U r out? Where?
Avoni: oh.. ofcourse i m out.. today's Valentines day.. uno.. (said in an animated voice.. )
Mum: What? where? with whom??
Avoni: i'l tell you when u get back..
Mum: tell me.. where.. which restuarant.. where exactly are you? (she spoke non-stop)
Avoni: I said i will tell you when you come back.. (still laughin.. )
Mum: Aya.. don't hide.. c'mon..
Avoni; just tell me what you have to tell miranda.. then i'l call her and pass the messsage..

END..

TODAY>. SUNDAY.. Mum calls again... i m in the Loo.. so brother picks up..
Mum: hey where did Avoni go y'day?
Benry: Avoni? I don know.. (blur blur.. ???)
Mum: ya saturday.. where did she go? was she at home?
Benry: I think she was at home?
Mum: R u sure..?
Then at that moment.. i hear from my bathroom...
Avoni: (SHOUTING...) I went out y'day.. (in an attempt to carry out my bluffing to the end.. )
Benry: oh oh.. mummy she was out y'day..
Mum: ask her with who?
Benry: Aya.. you ask her..
Avoni: Tell her i'l tell her later.. when she back..
Benry: che che.. she'l tell you later.. so wait ok.

END.. Then later after she get back home.. She asks sister, where i went and with whom i went y'day.. my sis knows about my plan, so she goes along and tells her,, i don't know..

Dad: so where were u y'day?
Avoni: out.. c'mon its V-day..
Mum: C'mon tell me with whom..
avoni: why don't you guess?? It mit be someone you know..
Mum: Oh oh i know.. ******* (she tells the name of a person, someone whom both mum n dad likes very much.. 0
dad: is it?
Avoni: mmm.. how did you know?
Dad: (speaks confidently..) cos your mum dreamt about it.. her dreams are never wrong..
Mum: yeah.. i dreamt about it..
Avoni: (laughing...) hahha.. wow.. u r really great...
Then suddenly my other cousin who lives with us (name: Ren), could not bear to hear all this bluffin..
Ren: (she laughs out.. ) hahaha.. both of you have been bluff.. haha. see thats why u must not believe dreams.
Avoni: hahahah.. I m really goood in bluffing..

END...

Story... Real life and fantasy.. MEET..

Recently i have been trying my hand at writing a story, like a novel. And hence i thought maybe i will mix real life events so as to make it realistic and so that people can connect to it...
But all the events happening around me now seems too unreal to be believed by people although it DID happen... Only those that i have fantasized appeared mor real than the real events..

Sometimes i wonder why bad things happen to good people.. but amidst all that we know that God has his hand in all this so HIS best is the best for all, although it may seem unfair for now..

Recently my brother has lost two of his best friends in a bike accident and the third one is still under treatment in the hospital... one spot dead.. but the other had to undergo alot, he was in a coma from the day of the accident until the day he died.. (from 26th jan until feb 9) sometimes i wonder, why God had not woken him even once, so that he can talk to his parents even if it is for the last time... He was a very intelligent, handsome, tall and good boy.. and most of all YOUNG.. he had sooo much to live... nwas whatever happened, God had his good intention...