My experiences with (studying) Greek can be liken to maintaining/working on a relationship/marriage.
Greek 1: honeymoon phase. I feel in love with Greek. Couldn't wait for the next class. Didn't need to study or work so hard to get A. I was just so in love with Greek. It was just so easy to love Greek.
Greek 2: little did I realize, trouble started brewing. I saw that Greek was not all that good. It became harder. I lost interest. Hence, I totally shut down and stopped studying/working on it. I started dreading n abhorring it and wondered why I even loved it in the first place. I wanted to give up. But just continued the relationship without any interest. There was no spark. No chemistry. The relationship just went on auto-pilot more because I didn't see the point in wasting energy fighting it, hating it.
Greek 3: now, despite hating it in Greek 2, somehow I pulled through it without failing. (the relationship was sore, but it still survived) so I managed to convince myself that if I don't start working on it, it will fail n collapse: I needed to put in more effort. It was either I fail or pass. (divorce or stay married) No other choice. I had to choose one. It couldn't continue on auto-pilot mode. So I decided to study. Give a bit of an effort. Because if not, it will fall apart. It is still hard. But I'm not giving up. And the relationship looks better now. But it's something I wouldn't mind closing the chapter on. I wish the love and passion I had for Greek in our honeymoon phase came back. But alas, like any other relationship. once u have seen the worst side of the other person, no matter how much u want to love them again, it just doesn't happen. You know too much of the bad stuff already to want to go back to the honeymoon phase. Only God can restore it back to that phase.
