As i m about to step into a new year ahead of me... i feel tired.. LOL... not the expression you would expect of me ya?? nwas starting from the 22nd.. had a fun yet head spinning time of running around (its either church, dinner party, or visiting friends.. like in nagaland during christmas we visit frens and give them cakes, pork or some gifts.. ).. and tonight also there is some dinner party that our family is compelled to attend.. i say compelled cos although i want to go and just have fun.. i would be busy getting jealous of their enormous house (kidding... ) muhahaha....
nwas i dont feel any extraordinary excitement.. no new wishes (just the old ones...) no new achievements i want to fulfil.. nothing.. it just another day.... another year older... another dreadful day on earth.. and another responsibility for me to make this dreadful day "EXCITING"!!
I want to host another party but just scared that most of my frens will bail out on me last minute.. now u know y i m so pissed LOL... i had this party at our house on 26th.. and most of my frens came ONE hour late... and 10 of my frens NEVER showed up.. gave excuses that they were busy of something.. some said.. "i really dont want to miss it but i have to help my fren as she is getting married" crap!!! nwas had fun even without them!! ok.. got to go now...
SWEET MEMORIES....
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Monday, December 22, 2008
Prayer meetings....
Our family has this tradition of having a prayer meetng every night before retiring.... so these days have been learning alot.. and also God has been revealing insights to me.. its amazing how he can make me give inspiring words to my family!!!
One of the prayer meeting, dad was talking about how we are princes and princesses of God so we should claim his riches and stuffs... so at that moment i started to weep.. ok there were other things that let to me crying during our prayer meeting (which i will share later..) nwas something just bang me in the head.. like how sometimes God likes to train us cos he wants to use us for a greater purpose.. he sometimes holds back on answering our prayers because he wants to give us somethings nicer and better than we even asked for... and sometimes its because he wants to tame our heart.. and on this i gave a long list of how i was before.. (the stubborn, arrogant, impatient gal.. etc) and then a list of incidents that changed me.. and i shared how sometimes God uses things that shame us so as to mould us into a better person.. etc... and also the thought that we should accept ourself for who we are just ran through my mind.. indeed God reveals things in a funny way!!
LOVE:---- these days have been learning alot about love too... more on how i should love myself too.. cos ok.. like one morning daddy came to my room and told me.. Avoni, u should also buy dresses for urself instead of sacrificing for us.. he meant that sometimes i should also think for myself and not only sacrifice what i want for them...
At that i was like.. Duh!!! i already have ALot of clothes.. I don need to buy more.. i m sacrificing for them (mum, dad, khris, albert and moses.. ) cos i love them.. and i wana shower them with all i can,, and for me that means buying them things (thats my love language)...
Then this thing continued even in the prayer meeting.. everybody was sitted.. then i came down with my track pants and sweat jacket.. as soon as i reached the room.. dad was like.. wow, avoni u look nice!!... buy more clothes for urself ok?
the turing to cristina he said, " you see she always sacrifices her money for us and ho9lds back for buying good clothes for herslf... and blah blah blah,,,
to that i wanted to cry and i jus answered.. daddy thats because i love u... i wana express my love!!!
Nwas haha... this also gives me the freedom to buy more clothes aye?? yo yo.. hahaha.... (actually he is crazy.. i don need any prompting to buy clothes.. its instrinsic..)LOL
Well.. at one of the prayer meetings again.. i felt goo.. lke i had this happy feeling of being loved...
dad was explaining to cristina.. how they spoilt me and pampered me as a child..
Dad: u see.. she was the first child.. so we did alot of things for her.. and even food.. she ate 6 eggs every day as a baby.. (then he continued with his long list of wat i ate..).. we pampered her alot...
MUm: especially daddy..
Khirstin: that y she ia a spoilt child..
(btw Khristin is my sister.. Cristina is a guest.. bro's fren from italy)
dad; But she is a very obedient child..
They continued with all their stupid comments..
But amidst all these discussions.. i got this warm feeling of being loved and accepted for who i was... amen!!
One of the prayer meeting, dad was talking about how we are princes and princesses of God so we should claim his riches and stuffs... so at that moment i started to weep.. ok there were other things that let to me crying during our prayer meeting (which i will share later..) nwas something just bang me in the head.. like how sometimes God likes to train us cos he wants to use us for a greater purpose.. he sometimes holds back on answering our prayers because he wants to give us somethings nicer and better than we even asked for... and sometimes its because he wants to tame our heart.. and on this i gave a long list of how i was before.. (the stubborn, arrogant, impatient gal.. etc) and then a list of incidents that changed me.. and i shared how sometimes God uses things that shame us so as to mould us into a better person.. etc... and also the thought that we should accept ourself for who we are just ran through my mind.. indeed God reveals things in a funny way!!
LOVE:---- these days have been learning alot about love too... more on how i should love myself too.. cos ok.. like one morning daddy came to my room and told me.. Avoni, u should also buy dresses for urself instead of sacrificing for us.. he meant that sometimes i should also think for myself and not only sacrifice what i want for them...
At that i was like.. Duh!!! i already have ALot of clothes.. I don need to buy more.. i m sacrificing for them (mum, dad, khris, albert and moses.. ) cos i love them.. and i wana shower them with all i can,, and for me that means buying them things (thats my love language)...
Then this thing continued even in the prayer meeting.. everybody was sitted.. then i came down with my track pants and sweat jacket.. as soon as i reached the room.. dad was like.. wow, avoni u look nice!!... buy more clothes for urself ok?
the turing to cristina he said, " you see she always sacrifices her money for us and ho9lds back for buying good clothes for herslf... and blah blah blah,,,
to that i wanted to cry and i jus answered.. daddy thats because i love u... i wana express my love!!!
Nwas haha... this also gives me the freedom to buy more clothes aye?? yo yo.. hahaha.... (actually he is crazy.. i don need any prompting to buy clothes.. its instrinsic..)LOL
Well.. at one of the prayer meetings again.. i felt goo.. lke i had this happy feeling of being loved...
dad was explaining to cristina.. how they spoilt me and pampered me as a child..
Dad: u see.. she was the first child.. so we did alot of things for her.. and even food.. she ate 6 eggs every day as a baby.. (then he continued with his long list of wat i ate..).. we pampered her alot...
MUm: especially daddy..
Khirstin: that y she ia a spoilt child..
(btw Khristin is my sister.. Cristina is a guest.. bro's fren from italy)
dad; But she is a very obedient child..
They continued with all their stupid comments..
But amidst all these discussions.. i got this warm feeling of being loved and accepted for who i was... amen!!
Sunday, December 14, 2008
grooming to be a mum...
Went down to market to get some stuffs for my room/house today... suddenly i felt like a mother.,,, lol... like other times my shoppin would be like buying clothes or shoes.. but today.. hahaha.. let me show u my list; medium size basket for my undies, small dustbin to be put near the dressing table, chopping board (a surprise for mummy.... make her happy,... lol), laundry basket for my room, skin cream for my brother (another surprise.. cos he doesn't know what cream to use n he was asking me yday.. cute ryt??)....
Now i know what it is like to be a mother... OTHERS comes first and then YOU... I m learning, hope that my dream of being the perfect mum comes true... (not now though)
Nwas another lesson i learnt today was... NEVER built a huge house... this morning i thought i will make my parents happy so i decided to sweep the whole house, instead of asking Rita to do it.. and it took me more than one hour to sweep the whole house... i never knew i would get myself into this much trouble for all the sweet things i wanted to do for them. lol...
Well......
frens comin over later.. so i thought i will make something nice for them (maybe a desert or.. i don know... later later.. )
oh.. tomor m goin up to kohima for another wedding... 2 hours drive from home, n that place is damn cold.. brr... ok byes for now!!!
Now i know what it is like to be a mother... OTHERS comes first and then YOU... I m learning, hope that my dream of being the perfect mum comes true... (not now though)
Nwas another lesson i learnt today was... NEVER built a huge house... this morning i thought i will make my parents happy so i decided to sweep the whole house, instead of asking Rita to do it.. and it took me more than one hour to sweep the whole house... i never knew i would get myself into this much trouble for all the sweet things i wanted to do for them. lol...
Well......
frens comin over later.. so i thought i will make something nice for them (maybe a desert or.. i don know... later later.. )
oh.. tomor m goin up to kohima for another wedding... 2 hours drive from home, n that place is damn cold.. brr... ok byes for now!!!
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Pre-xmas concert!!!
Y'day would probably be one of the many busiest and craziest day of my life!!!
Crazy?? why?? cos my spre throat has not vanish... i took a pic of my throat and right at the end of my tongue.. right before it goes down to the throat.. i saw like many sores.. like pimples but redder!!! so scary!!!... and i was jus too tensed!!! cos both of songs... "love changes everything" and "think of me" were super high!!! but i wud not give in.. and let satan defeat me.. so i decided not to cancel my performance but to jus fo ahead and sing.. no-matter-what!!!
well.. abother element aiding to the craziness was that i had to play in a wedding that morning.. around 10am.. and the wedding dragged until 1 pm.. and the concert was at 3pm.. so right after i readhed home.. my sister welcomed me with a hurried tone.. "avoni.. fast.. dress fast.... get ready!!"... well managed to dress quickly and vocalise and run thru the song a couple of times...
AT the concert;-- unlike choir performace.. wer reaching the high notes with sore throat was slightly easier (cos anyway they wunt know who cracked..haha) .. this time i was all alone.. if i cracked my voice i was doomed!! nwas this is all God's grace!! i was able to sing properly.. wow!!! the first song,, i sort of forgot my lyrics.. haha... n my pianist (my wonderful brother Albert) had a hard time flipping his pages cos he did not know where i was singing.. hahah.. but we did not stop so it was sort of not noticable!!
Then the second song was the highlight of my performance.. maybe cos the song is close to my heart.. (think of me) i loved it!!! cos ok.. let me explain this song.. first its cristine singing.. then raoul comes in with two lines... so at first i thought i will skip the guy part,, but my other brother (benry) aggried to sing these two lines.. so the fantastic part was like... at first i was singing solo... ten he stayed backstage... ten.. when it was his turn.. he started to sing from back-stage and came in.. it was such a cool thing.. cos at first u only hear his voice.. ten.. aya.. i cant explain the experience properly..
hhahaha.. oh another highlight ofthe day.. cristina (my brother's fren who is spending cmas with us?? rem??) came up to my room and..
Cristina: avoni.. come i'l show u something..
Avoni: yes.. what is it..
Cristina: come down.. take ur time..
Avoni: ok..
at the stairs she asked me to close my eyes... ten she took me inside the guest room... ten asked me to sit down..
Cristina: ok.. now open ur eyes...
Avoni: ok...
(she guestures wit her eyes to look down..ten i saw a gift wrapped... well.. cutely wrapped.. not neatly,, hahha..
Open it and saw a beautiful blouse,,,,
Avoni: wow.. socute.. it;s so nice...
Cristina: well i did not know what to get you. so i kept asking albert and moses... how u were and what kinda clothes u wear.. haha...
Avoni: it is very pretty...
Cristina: (shows me the tag,,,) see see.. here its written.. made in india with love.. its made with love... hahah...
ok thats about it..
and this morning.. had another wedding to play for.. so finis playing.. ten m skippin one weddin.. ten later i have a rehearsal for another wedding (tomor).. tired.... okmuacks!!
Crazy?? why?? cos my spre throat has not vanish... i took a pic of my throat and right at the end of my tongue.. right before it goes down to the throat.. i saw like many sores.. like pimples but redder!!! so scary!!!... and i was jus too tensed!!! cos both of songs... "love changes everything" and "think of me" were super high!!! but i wud not give in.. and let satan defeat me.. so i decided not to cancel my performance but to jus fo ahead and sing.. no-matter-what!!!
well.. abother element aiding to the craziness was that i had to play in a wedding that morning.. around 10am.. and the wedding dragged until 1 pm.. and the concert was at 3pm.. so right after i readhed home.. my sister welcomed me with a hurried tone.. "avoni.. fast.. dress fast.... get ready!!"... well managed to dress quickly and vocalise and run thru the song a couple of times...
AT the concert;-- unlike choir performace.. wer reaching the high notes with sore throat was slightly easier (cos anyway they wunt know who cracked..haha) .. this time i was all alone.. if i cracked my voice i was doomed!! nwas this is all God's grace!! i was able to sing properly.. wow!!! the first song,, i sort of forgot my lyrics.. haha... n my pianist (my wonderful brother Albert) had a hard time flipping his pages cos he did not know where i was singing.. hahah.. but we did not stop so it was sort of not noticable!!
Then the second song was the highlight of my performance.. maybe cos the song is close to my heart.. (think of me) i loved it!!! cos ok.. let me explain this song.. first its cristine singing.. then raoul comes in with two lines... so at first i thought i will skip the guy part,, but my other brother (benry) aggried to sing these two lines.. so the fantastic part was like... at first i was singing solo... ten he stayed backstage... ten.. when it was his turn.. he started to sing from back-stage and came in.. it was such a cool thing.. cos at first u only hear his voice.. ten.. aya.. i cant explain the experience properly..
hhahaha.. oh another highlight ofthe day.. cristina (my brother's fren who is spending cmas with us?? rem??) came up to my room and..
Cristina: avoni.. come i'l show u something..
Avoni: yes.. what is it..
Cristina: come down.. take ur time..
Avoni: ok..
at the stairs she asked me to close my eyes... ten she took me inside the guest room... ten asked me to sit down..
Cristina: ok.. now open ur eyes...
Avoni: ok...
(she guestures wit her eyes to look down..ten i saw a gift wrapped... well.. cutely wrapped.. not neatly,, hahha..
Open it and saw a beautiful blouse,,,,
Avoni: wow.. socute.. it;s so nice...
Cristina: well i did not know what to get you. so i kept asking albert and moses... how u were and what kinda clothes u wear.. haha...
Avoni: it is very pretty...
Cristina: (shows me the tag,,,) see see.. here its written.. made in india with love.. its made with love... hahah...
ok thats about it..
and this morning.. had another wedding to play for.. so finis playing.. ten m skippin one weddin.. ten later i have a rehearsal for another wedding (tomor).. tired.... okmuacks!!
Sunday, December 7, 2008
home...
Sorry for the delay in bloggin.. been busy..plus daddy did not manage to get those people to give us internet connection at home cos our house is very far from town... the disadvantage of livin where i m livin.. nwas the advantages outweighs the disadvantage... Well here is a breif outline of what i have been doing...
2 dec: (3:30pm ) reached dimapur.. Right after reaching home.. daddy wanted me to play the piano for him, as he had to sing in the Chapel.. Mummy and the others suggested to letmy sister or cousin play for him (as i jus reached n was very tred accordin to her) But my dad insisted that i play for him... he wd not have anyone play for him.. so i rehearsed wit him once and rushed off to shower..
At the chapel, I was completely stoning... hahah...
Well, i slept very late.. cos i could not stop talking.. my mum and dad and sis and cousin,, were all amazed at how much i could talk.. the thought i would be tired after all the travelling.. Infact i kept them awake until 1am(singapore time 330am) cos i wanted to talk....
3 dec... Went to see a doctor... for my sore throat...
then visited one of my best friend... she is 21.. and i cant believe that she'sd gona marry next year around december... man!! i m sooo scared and i started panicking right after she told me that she's ready to get married next year!!! nwas she said she will marry durin my holidays.. cos she would not want to do it withuot me!! so sweet...... well the saddest thing would be.. my children and herchldren will not be best frens.. cos i wunt marry anytime soon so definitely my kids would be smaller than hers.. sad!!!
She cooked a naga dish for me...
She showed me her adopted sister (cos theirparents adopted a child.. long story..)
CAme home and startedatlking again....
4th dec... went to attend a wedding. it was extremely grand... cant imagine why they would spend so much for a wedding.. it was just too extravagent....
5th dec... mummy wanted me to study.. as i hadexam on the6th dec.. well i was sleeping mostof the time...
frens called and visited.. they said i have changed.. in their word i have become more boring and quieter.. nonsense!!!
6th dec.. got ready to give exam.. i really dreaded... cos this course is not what i want to do. but i m just studyin cos my parents want me to do it.. and well they would never let me do something that is not good for me ryt?? so an hour before the exam. i realsed that i left my idendity card for this coursein singapore.. haha.. so i cant give the exam. hahhaa.. i was damn happy!!
but my mm and dad wo\unt giveup... they took me to the examination centre anyway...
and dad talked to the people there.. they decided to let me give the exam... they looked for my name and stufs.. and guess what?? they realised that i have not been registered for the exam... apparently the form that my parent filled u.. the registration form for the exam.. did not reached them.... hahahah.. so i wunt be able to give the exam this time.. only next year in june.. hahah.. no one was happier than me..
at night.. we went to the train station to recieved my brothers.. (albert and benry) cos they were arriving tonight from delhi.. i was sooo excited cos this means that opur whole family would be together... haha... nwas the train got delayed.. but i entertained my parents (tellin stories ofcus) so time flew by fast!!!
7the dec.. sunday.. went to church.. daddy preached today... and he took our choir to sing there.. i m pretty impressed.. nwas what we did not realise until someone commented was that the three os us.. me, albert and moses were in pink!!! haha so we looked like we were in uniform.. thank god my sis did not wear pink...
that evening.. my borthers went to recieved their fren cristina (a romanian-italian).. she is goin to spend christmans with us.. she is such a wonderful gal.. haha... always giggling and laughin..
8th dec...daddy informs me that i m goin to be the MC for the concert... i wanted to say no.. but being me.. i just cant say no to daddy...
well then khristin (my sis) said she wanted to buy a boot... so i decided to follow her.. but ended up in a cyber cafe with cristina... while albert accompanied her to shop!!1... well,.. tats all!!!
Later.. i got to practice my songs with the band...
ten since aggreed to play the piano (for one piece) with the choir.. got to practice with them..
still praying for my throat,.,,, it still hurts.. doc said that singers tend to abuse their throat so i got to b careful...
okies bye guys!!
2 dec: (3:30pm ) reached dimapur.. Right after reaching home.. daddy wanted me to play the piano for him, as he had to sing in the Chapel.. Mummy and the others suggested to letmy sister or cousin play for him (as i jus reached n was very tred accordin to her) But my dad insisted that i play for him... he wd not have anyone play for him.. so i rehearsed wit him once and rushed off to shower..
At the chapel, I was completely stoning... hahah...
Well, i slept very late.. cos i could not stop talking.. my mum and dad and sis and cousin,, were all amazed at how much i could talk.. the thought i would be tired after all the travelling.. Infact i kept them awake until 1am(singapore time 330am) cos i wanted to talk....
3 dec... Went to see a doctor... for my sore throat...
then visited one of my best friend... she is 21.. and i cant believe that she'sd gona marry next year around december... man!! i m sooo scared and i started panicking right after she told me that she's ready to get married next year!!! nwas she said she will marry durin my holidays.. cos she would not want to do it withuot me!! so sweet...... well the saddest thing would be.. my children and herchldren will not be best frens.. cos i wunt marry anytime soon so definitely my kids would be smaller than hers.. sad!!!
She cooked a naga dish for me...
She showed me her adopted sister (cos theirparents adopted a child.. long story..)
CAme home and startedatlking again....
4th dec... went to attend a wedding. it was extremely grand... cant imagine why they would spend so much for a wedding.. it was just too extravagent....
5th dec... mummy wanted me to study.. as i hadexam on the6th dec.. well i was sleeping mostof the time...
frens called and visited.. they said i have changed.. in their word i have become more boring and quieter.. nonsense!!!
6th dec.. got ready to give exam.. i really dreaded... cos this course is not what i want to do. but i m just studyin cos my parents want me to do it.. and well they would never let me do something that is not good for me ryt?? so an hour before the exam. i realsed that i left my idendity card for this coursein singapore.. haha.. so i cant give the exam. hahhaa.. i was damn happy!!
but my mm and dad wo\unt giveup... they took me to the examination centre anyway...
and dad talked to the people there.. they decided to let me give the exam... they looked for my name and stufs.. and guess what?? they realised that i have not been registered for the exam... apparently the form that my parent filled u.. the registration form for the exam.. did not reached them.... hahahah.. so i wunt be able to give the exam this time.. only next year in june.. hahah.. no one was happier than me..
at night.. we went to the train station to recieved my brothers.. (albert and benry) cos they were arriving tonight from delhi.. i was sooo excited cos this means that opur whole family would be together... haha... nwas the train got delayed.. but i entertained my parents (tellin stories ofcus) so time flew by fast!!!
7the dec.. sunday.. went to church.. daddy preached today... and he took our choir to sing there.. i m pretty impressed.. nwas what we did not realise until someone commented was that the three os us.. me, albert and moses were in pink!!! haha so we looked like we were in uniform.. thank god my sis did not wear pink...
that evening.. my borthers went to recieved their fren cristina (a romanian-italian).. she is goin to spend christmans with us.. she is such a wonderful gal.. haha... always giggling and laughin..
8th dec...daddy informs me that i m goin to be the MC for the concert... i wanted to say no.. but being me.. i just cant say no to daddy...
well then khristin (my sis) said she wanted to buy a boot... so i decided to follow her.. but ended up in a cyber cafe with cristina... while albert accompanied her to shop!!1... well,.. tats all!!!
Later.. i got to practice my songs with the band...
ten since aggreed to play the piano (for one piece) with the choir.. got to practice with them..
still praying for my throat,.,,, it still hurts.. doc said that singers tend to abuse their throat so i got to b careful...
okies bye guys!!
Monday, December 1, 2008
waitin...
Waiting..
what a many emotion is dispelled by this single word...
Anguish..
Irritation...
Anticipating to see a loved one...
But now.. I cant continue to wait... a few more hours n i'l be home!! A few more hours to see my new room.. Will it b as nice as i wanted it to be?? anxiety perps in... as they say curiosity kills the cat!!
well.. ciao for now..
I hate waiting..
Dont keep me waiting...
Less u dont see me anymore...
what a many emotion is dispelled by this single word...
Anguish..
Irritation...
Anticipating to see a loved one...
But now.. I cant continue to wait... a few more hours n i'l be home!! A few more hours to see my new room.. Will it b as nice as i wanted it to be?? anxiety perps in... as they say curiosity kills the cat!!
well.. ciao for now..
I hate waiting..
Dont keep me waiting...
Less u dont see me anymore...
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